Sat, May 5, 2012 at 1:55 PM
So lately i've been having a problem w. my relationship. My boyfriend keeps putting me off to the side every now and then. It's kinda hurting my feelings. I just don't wanna tell him. If i dot hen he'll assume things and then we will end up in a huge fight. I just want to make sure everything between us is ok. I'm just getting a bit too jealous? Today he's going to his prom. That makes my insecurities a lot worse. I can't just sit around and wait for him to call me. One time we went 3 days in a row without speaking to each other. Those 3 days led me to tears. I don't wanna have to go through that again. All this pain is being bottled up inside me. I haven't told him how i feel about this situation. Is that bad? The main thing is, I have trust issues. I can't just NOT speak to him for a while and pretend like everything is ok with me. I do realize that i put on a smile even when I'm dying inside, but sometimes a girl just has to let it out. Lately i've been letting everything out. It's not my fault though. Ever since i was 3 I've had a habit of bottling everything up. I'm afraid that if i keep doing this, it will take over and destroy me. This past week has been stressful for me. My teachers have been putting the universe on all our shoulders. Of course I'm going to snap. Everyone does eventually. I just don't want to snap on him. He's out having the best time ever, and I'm at home being miserable. I'm afraid his fun might lead him to something else. Maybe it will lead me to being broken hearted. I just can't let that happen AGAIN. :/ But i can't just stand aside while he's out doing as he pleases...