Wed, Dec 8, 2010 at 3:03 PM
LORD HAVE MERCY
Oh my God. I hope I passed my exam today! Lately "Stuffs just getting me bogged down, I'm sad" :-(. I feel like I'm losing myself or something. I'm not who I used to be and I wanna go back to that old Kelsey but at the same time I don't wanna be because I wanna grow and change. I was someone who studied hard and got good grades. I didn't smoke weed or drink. But i guess with time comes new friends and many changes. I'm not even sure what I'm working towards anymore and it's really starting to scare me. I have a blueprint in my mind but there's still some tweaking here and there that I need to do. I'm always thinking about my future, 'cause I'm afraid. I'm afraid that my blueprint will have to many flaws in it to actually come to life. I got dreams bigger then my little 700,000 civilian city. . idk, maybe it's just been a bit of a rough day but it's what I'm feeling atm & I'll blog about it. It's time to take charge & be a bad bitch, not a stupid one.