Fri, Dec 17, 2010 at 7:31 PM
I HATE MY FUQIN LIFE I REALLY DO!!
WHY GOD...WHY DOES EVERYTHING ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME....u know how i feel about my whole like that sometimes i wish i would just die and go to heaven so i can b at peace...everythin bad always happens to me...my best friend is mad at me.. i JUST found out RIGHT THIS SECOND that my dad IS DRINKING AGAIN n i cant do anything about it. I always feel ugly n that no one will ever like me...i just hate my life..everythin i do is wrong i can never do anything right in my life... my mom just came home so i went downstairs to c her, n she was gettin somethin to eat, so my dad come out askin her where u were n shitt, n y she didnt answer her phone, then i just plain out asked him r u drinkin again and he was like yah, n i just said u will never change will u, u will always b the same, then me, my mom and dad all get into an argument about how he is and he is always going baq and that he is so lonely in this world n that no one likes u, ur own family doesnt like u thats sad. He was like well y dont yall like me. Me and my mom just looked at him like he was stupid and said because of the things you have done in the past, dont u get it. I dont feel like explainin the rest.I wish i were 18 already so i can leave. I think my sister knos that i was cryin and sad right now. Shes down syndrome n she keeps hugin me and touchin me, i know shes knows whtas goin on. Life is just...ughh i hate it right now!!!