Wed, Oct 5, 2011 at 4:51 AM
“If you want to be somebody, if you want to go somewhere, you better wake up and pay attention!!!”
I woke up reciting this this beautiful Tuesday morning. Immediately I thought to myself, ‘it’s time.’ It’s time to be somebody. It’s time for me to wake up and once again put these dreams in ink so they can become my reality… take me some-where. I then remembered that it is Tuesday and the garbage (wo)man will be rolling around this corner any minute. Knowing that Mr. Baby did not handle this the night prior I went to work - sorting the recycle from the compost from the garbage and getting the cans out to the curb. All the while, still reciting, reminding, and somewhat chanting, “If you want to be somebody, if you want to go somewhere, you better wake up and pay attention!!!”
I have been racking my brain these past few days to figure out what I am good at. You see, I have friends who naturally, are good at things like singing or dancing, sports, business and numbers, etc. I went to Pista (a Filipino Cultural event celebrating Philippine Independence Day) the other day to support my girl Natalie who rocked the stage twice. As singer and dancer after singer and dancer hit the stage I began to wonder what my gifts were.
In some people their gifts appear to be so obvious and natural because their beauty is so… so… visible or audible. You know what I mean? You can hear someone sing, see someone jump high to slam jam dunk, watch someone perform ballet, laugh at someone’s comedic skit, and so on. Since that event I have been contemplating, what is it that I do, what talent it is that I have that makes me different or special, or better yet an important contributor to this planet. What are and where are these gifts of mine?
I pray that I discover them or that He reveals them to me.
Once upon a time I would have been sure that my gifts consisted of a dedicated passion for helping others and positively effecting others through my actions or with my words. While I secretly pray and hope this still to be true I most certainly at age twenty-four am the most jaded I have ever been when it comes to the challenges and disparities in this world that I used to possess so much fire for. *Breathe*
Because I am now very behind on time and have yet to begin to get ready for work I am going to end with this: I want to do more than I am now (be somebody). I want my impact to be greater (go somewhere). It is time for me to stop waiting for opportunity to land in my lap (wake up). No more sleep walking (pay attention).
Just like I did this morning when I went to work - sorting the recycle from the compost from the garbage and getting the cans out to the curb - I need to get to work on my life in the same manner. Every morning, not just Tuesday’s when I’m racing to beat the garbage (wo)man, I must sort the good stuff from the other stuff and recite, remind, and somewhat chant to remember to pay attention!!!
“If it is to be, it is up to me.” - William Johnson