Mon, Oct 17, 2011 at 7:03 PM
This is one of my plenty bogs and what I have realized is I am not that great of a blogger so I have decided to try harder lolol. anywho if you walk past me youd probably think that im your average girl who lives in an average town. and for a some time i would have thought the same thing! LMAO. I changed from a fun loving people person who loved to talk outta line and speak my mind to a housewife and mom within one year. Being a mother is not bad at all and neither was the housewife part which you might wanna include my full time job too. I became a robot. Something HUGE and drastic kicked me right back into reality.... who was I? Where did I lose myself? && how can I get myself back? WHY DID I CHANGE IN THE FIRST PLACE? WAS IT FOR ME OR SOMEONE ELSE?
Well you could say the first step was getting all my much needed girl time in :P thank you ladies and than getting everyone who was using me and my life as some way to make them feel better about themselves with no concern of the fact that it was effecting my family and lifestyle OUTT && lastly it was NICKI! NICKI you gave me hope when my days felt soooo low. You put a smile back on my face every time pinkfriday came on && a reason to say GET OFF MY DICK BITCH - ANDY - LOUD AND PROUD - (which happened to be the guys name that cheated on me ) I went out I had fun I partied I enjoyed life
Now I need to find my happy medium. Its not JUST about being robot mom or JUST about being crazy and fun. IM STILL FINDING MYSELF. Im a mom of two at 21 and I dont know anyone who has gone thru wat Ive gone thru recently or even my past....which led to that destructive fun crazy out of line girl that I love and miss at times. but my kids love Nicki as much as I do everytime my Mercedez hears or sees Ms. Minaj shes yelling icccccki minajjj in her 3 year old voice and my son Oscar is into her english accent he cant get enuf of it. Hes about to be two but hes like my own lil Roman lol
ANYWAYS THANK YOU NICKI!
I LOVE YOU! I LOVE LIFE! I LOVE MUSIC! I LOVE MYPINKFRIDAY! AND I LOVE YOU BARBZ AND KENZ!