Sun, Apr 3, 2011 at 5:02 PM
Question: Have you ever felt like .... I dont know.
Like you just feel how you feel and you cant help it?! Cause sometimes I feel like I'm the only one. Ya know? And no I'm not talkin about suicidal thoughts but I dont know how to explain it. Like I LOVE my friends with ALLL my heart! But sometimes I cant help but feel jealous or unappreciated or unloved.
Jealous is a feeling I usually stray away from because I'm just not that kind of person but everyone feels it sometime or another. And I cant lie. I've been feeling it recently along with the other ones I said.
I mean its one thing to SAY you love someone but words can only get you but so far. SHOWING someone you love them... Now that means something. Sometimes I see people giving love in more ways than one to someone they really care about. For example When TM myself included show Nicki love. We're arent juz sayin we love her. But 2 of my close friends, I feel recieve soooooo much love from our other friends myself included and sometimes I sit back and think why dont I recieve the same kind or amt of love they do?
Ya know? Like favoritism comes into play or something...
Its like I'm alwayz there for you whenever u need me for whatever and I bend over backwards for you but I still dont feel like you're there for me the way I am for you. Thats where the feeling unappreciated comes into play also.
Its like you treat them like goddesses and sure you treat me well but definitely not like you treat them.
Now I dont wanna sound like im complaining but i dont know
I juz wanted to get it off my chest on here because I feel that I had said something they'd tell me " you're bein soo dumb rite now. WTF are u talkin abt?! we treat everyone the same."
And I DO overanalyzing EVERYTHING.. Lol A sad flaw I found in myself but I cant help it. My brain juz does overtime and thinks too much abt things... But nevertheless sometimes you juz feel how you feel...
I juz wish sometimes that people would tell ME how much they love me and why because thats juz what you need to hear sometimes...