Fri, Nov 25, 2011 at 12:21 AM
RANT: My mom really got me fucked up.
My mom just told me I can't be on my computer any later than 11pm (as she has plenty of times before). I'm 19 years old, going to college full time and looking for a job and these are the kind of rules her tries to implement on me. My brother who is 21, graduated high school just a year ago, isn't going to college, has never had a job and is making no type of effort to do anything with his life- he has absolutely no rules, and if he does he doesn't follow them. Just this year my mom found out he's been smoking weed and drinking since he moved out 2 years ago (then moved back in). The reason she uses to back up him having no rules is that "she can't do anything about it" even though she knows she can, she isn't willing to and it's sad, she let's him treat her like crap but yet she feels like she can't do anything about it. Anyway even though he does all this shit he can get away with anything while I have rules like, I have to get off my computer at a certain fucking time. I could've moved out a long time ago but I told myself that I should stay and help my mom since no one else is but then she repays me with bullshit ass rules and not to mentions she bashes gays all the time so I can't even come out to her without feeling like shit or like I'm doing something wrong. I'm probably just saying one side of the story but I feel like it's completely unfair. I just want to get my college degree, start my career take care of my mom while staying as far as possible because the things she does make me so fucking mad. I hate my fucking life.