Tue, Jul 12, 2011 at 6:08 PM
Never in my life did i think i would say this and mean it... I never thought it would hurt so bad to let you guys go either... I feel like someone ripped my heart out and replaced it with a heart made out of nails.. if ms day saw this she would tell me not to put my biz out there but i feel u guys are family and should know why... Most of you have read my blog not this one but "the girl b4 muny" some of you haven't.. the best day of my life was currently followed by the worst day... when your young you never think you would lose your family you never think you would be in this world alone.... your not told life is not easy and your never told you can lose everything in a blink of an eye... today i lost my mother... no she did not die shes alive but thats not my mom... some of you may think im spoiled but i worked no bust my ass for my vip both times!! im a lucky no blessed girl... this woman says that im rude and that i treat nicki and teamminaj better than i treat her... so im leaving twitter i wont be texting or talking on the phone either... it hurts sooo bad.. yes i feel defeated like the war i was fighting with the devil i lost.. in some ways thats true cuz i just lost my mom im done trying... im done fighting... i wont have time for twitter with work and school which is why im leaving.... i wont have time to sit and talk about the woman who has filled the place of my mom in teaching me how to carry my self.. how to trust in god and how to place him first b4 any one.. a woman who told me to kick ass in school (which i will continue to do) and who told me that i am beautiful.. a woman who saved my life from thoughts of killing my self and continues to put a smile on my face... its hard.. i love you guys and its more to the story but just know its a fight and me that wont give up... ill just be gone for a while.. @jessie_barbie @nickiscarebear @trebblebarbie i gave u girls my password so that my page wont just sit and get deleted tweet something from it every now and then i promise ill com back for it.. when im sipping martinis with jess in our new place in atl... :)) i cant fight with her any more not strong enough for it... love you guys @nickiminaj @scaffbeezy @hairsonly1me @wannadayface vaks @treasure_davis if u guys come across this i love you guys and thank you cuz the words all of you have said either to me or through tweets stick in the back of my head and you guys are the reason im not giving up you and my sisters... love you guys #teamminaj till the death of me... oh and ill be lurking :)) i learned from the best lurk in the world... muahhhhh!