Mon, Aug 19, 2013 at 8:53 AM
Dear Nicki , I just need someone to listen.
Hi Nicki, my name is D. I'm a young black male going through a very trying time in my life. I'm 22 years old and I'm HIV positive. I found out recently in march of this year. I'm also a gay male. As you may know living in today's society as a gay male can be very hard, especially having to be classified as a Gay HIV positive male. I'm so stressed. I'm currently unemployed but looking each & every day. I'm also going thru a horrible break up with my ex boyfriend of 7months. I'm really in love with this guy but he has hurt me to my core and I just don't know how to respond to our break up. In my mind I feel like we will get back together. But I have to face the reality that we may not. I've never really had a boyfriend because I was always so uncomfortable with my sexuality, thinking I'm not as cute, or in shape, or have pretty teeth, just feeling insecure ect ect But I just need a little guidance or words of encouragement from someone. I'm a very low key/discreet type of young man. I don't like to broadcast all of my feelings or emotions and I think that's why I'm going thru what I'm going thru mentally. I've never really had to many friends I could confide into with my problems to where someone could actually understand my standpoint or just comfort me. Not even from my ex boyfriend which really hurt me the most. Sometimes I just feel like a lost soul trying to find my body again but I don't want to do it alone! I really do love this guy and I just want to know what do you think I should do or how should I take things? For some reason something told me to write the up& coming legend Nicki and hope for a response. I'm not asking for money or for you to do anything special for me but i honestly just want someone to listen to me. I don't think I need a therapist or to see a doctor but I just need a friend someone who will let me have the floor and just tell me the real deal. I'm feeling like things aren't looking up for me sometimes but I know god has something bigger in store for me but until that time comes all I need is a hug and some uplifting words. Thanks for allowing me to write you & for you taking the time out of your busy life to read my short novel I just wrote you on my iPhone lol I really appreciate it sincerely one of your kenbarbs